Have you seen the wind?

Because it's been taken from my sails today.

The good news is that I heard back from our agency about the wait time. The bad news is bad. According to them, we are looking at a 6-12 month wait for referral, followed by a 4-6 month wait before travel to China. Yup, we could be looking at a year and a half before we have our girl, making it 4 years of waiting. I'm trying to stay positive. I'm trying to remind myself that this will happen the way it is supposed to in order for us to be matched with the right child and that it will all be worth it. I'm really trying, but I am not having much success.

I'm upset. I'm upset that our agency told us in December that we'd be looking at half the time they are now quoting us. It's not their fault, it's just how things are. I'm upset that the excitement I felt yesterday has been mostly put out by the knowledge that we almost certainly won't have a referral by Christmas.

There has been a huge influx of pregnancies in my family over the last couple weeks and it kinda sucks knowing that these babies that haven't even been born will likely be a year old before we even get to hold our sweet girl or see her face to face. It will happen when it's supposed to, I know that. It doesn't change the fact that today is a hard day.